After a summer full of holidays, BBQ’s and partying, unfortunately, I had to come back to work. Don’t get me wrong, I do enjoy my job (I’m not just saying this for all you PB lot reading this), BUT I can’t help but say, that I returned with a heavy heart. Since stepping off the plane, I’ve been thinking when do I get to start doing the things I really enjoy? When do I start having this “holiday feeling” 24/7? When do I put into place the things I’ve been dreaming of for the last thousand years?
I told myself that it would all be fine because I’m a strong independent woman who is capable of juggling both her job and her dream. For now that is… the aim is for the dream to pay for this lavish Calabassas wife lifestyle eventually. But is that true Elle? Is it? Can you really fucking do it all?
Who knew that juggling it all would be so hard? I hype myself up for everything so I really believed that I could do it, but it’s fucking hard man. I work nights, so I tend to sleep all day, and if I do wake up early enough, I don’t want to exert myself and tire myself out before my shift. I found out very quickly that you have to be extremely strict with yourself to ensure you get everything done; it’s so easy to get lost in one job or the other. If you say you’re going to do something then do it. Simples. Worst comes to worst, at least START it; you’ll be in a much better place than you were yesterday. Before you know it, things will start to take shape and greatness will happen.
Behind the scenes of JXNFR embroidery line shoot // jenifergardiner.com // @jenifergardiner
There have been times where I’ve wanted to give up on my dream for a number of reasons – a block in creativity; not feeling supported by friends and family; or even having people put my ideas down – BUT DIS BITCH IS HERE TO STAY. At least once a week I have a moment where I wonder why I’m putting in so much effort still, but then I go back to my little book where I’ve written down a plethora of reasons why I started; why I love what I’m doing; who I want to reach and what my end goal is.
writing writing writing // @ellemacuk
One of my friends starting her own clothing line/boutique recently said “I don’t do what I do for other people. It’s all for my enjoyment, which is why it’s so easy for me to get back on track and go at whatever pace I want if I ever fall off.” Wise words son. I’m fed up of waiting for my dreams to create themselves; it’s time to take charge and start on mine. Whatever your dream is, today is the day to get started on making it a reality, you’ll feel much better about it than you did yesterday. Mic drop.
new clothing boutique // @mirror_mirror_uk
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